tomazh pengov: "sarkofagi"

intro:



verse 1:



verse 2:



verse 3 + female vocals



verse 4 + female vocals

part 2nd

Part.2

Imagine a field full of roses and joy...
Actually they were sun-flowers but it's the thought that counts.

Always dreaming about that true love... that I read about in books, heard in love songs... it never mattered if: »she comes from an another planet, if u call her a different country or a different e-motional name (named after a land scape"). There she was my playground love.

(to you, the one who's re reading this in anger thinking I know her: don't claim you met or knew her... it's not about the thing u call: »her!«)
This one's real...

A true story without a happy ending, becouse there was no need for one... I love movies with a sad »happy end«
It's like cutting a rose and giving it to someone »as a gift«. We destroy lives to create joy. We destroy ourselves to create happy moments for everybody around us, that we love. Creating that picture perfect smile, to frame it with the most beautiful background and pack it in a box with three breathing holes made of e-motions (still knowing that nothing will ever compare to her...)
Her hair stopped the place and grabbed me as a whole...
Grabbed my attention. As I was going thorewards... to the exit of this little rollercoaster of my mind. Black...

With long hair knitted together with the color of the sun... that orange... I guess you could call it that? Orange... every emotion is true.

How can u...

The rest was already all written be4 (c.o.t.a.)

i miss my her... my you... pt1

part one:

The hope was that on the day of my execution there should be a huge crowd of spectators and that they should greet me with howls of execration.



a.camus

I guess that it all started back in the eighties... it always starts somewhere around that time... they never told me the exact date but making 2- or -3 counts it was in 1984. Actually it started years later in 2007, the new and forbidden millennium (when i met u)

Coming out clean

I guess the main picture in my life, that i keep on coming back to, it's a small dog barking at the bag, where they put bodies (corps) in. That, in some way »idiotic« proof of the unknown was my first contract with death. Just like Christianity it was the little stupid story by someone we used to love and learned how to hate in time.
A little »almost battery filled dog owned by some fat lady in a furry coat« barked at the bag in which my _____________ was carried away.
» It proves how fucking special it was...« he told me after the 5th beer.
It wasn't counting them back then but i knew by the way the words were braking and his tong was throwing saliva all over the place.
» He was really special... even the dog could feel it...« now i know it was because the smell of the rotten human flesh. They found him the 5th day hanging by his feet. Just like a ball of glass on a Christmas tree. Even Jesus came out of his grave on the third day... I guess that's why he looks so crispy fresh and young all the time, on all those reminders of the way he died, that we all call crosses.
I saw him that night even if i never went to the funeral, i never understood why. Maybe because i wanted to. Couse he was special. He had a long beard and long hair 2. Just like Jesus. But he was hanging on the tree for 5 days so there were no wooden statues or oil portraits on canvas... not even a portrait on his tomb stone.
 
Because his own family was ashamed of his long black hair and that long beard...
(music from the musical »Hair«)
I guess that's why he sang him »the black »freckle« across his eyes« on his funeral...
Or at least he tried to...

They were laughing at him... Couse he was walking around bare foot. They even used to call me names because of him. Because we were those neighbors... in that small city that everyone is talking about, and the neighbors that they later all become.
They used to shout his surname at me when they were dunk...in bars they called »homely«. The same surname I share with him as if it was a course worth.
howls of execration: (exe'rjshn): coursing, the act of coursing;
even when they were 10 times drunker as he was when he was walking barefoot. »but they went to church the next day. And listened to stories about Jesus Christ the savior« walking barefoot on water...«
and nobody called him my surname for doing that.
My own surname...
He was special. Not because the dogs were barking but because. Even when passed out, they couldn't beat him at chess. And they call it the game of life. They do. He was best at it... and didn't want to be a part of it... they couldn't bit him. So i guess he understood it and was good at it. Because he was good at chess. The game of life.
I used to carry his picture around. Just like they do. He wasn't as pretty as Jesus or perfect as they were in their little lives. As we are... But still he was never a role model. But he was special... not because the dogs were barking.
Not because he smelled of death, but because we share the same blood...
The same name... his... sur(name)

covenant danaja

Covenant danaja
terms of the “firm belief in love”

1. the name and the emblem of danaja are the multimedial materialization of the idea of love itself and the love for art, state, religion and other sheep-like behavior adopted by society for it's self-preservation... Means giving the ready-made idea of love and state a new face and visual form. Embodied in the form of danaja

• ime in znak danaje sta multimedijska materializacija ideje brezpogojne ljubezni do umetnosti, drzhave, religije in ostalih ovčno-čredniških sistemov, ki jih druzhba koristi kot orodja samozaschite. Pomenita prenovo in novo podobo ideje ljubezni do drzhave, umetnosti in religije in jo prenese na umetnost kot popolnoma svoboden multimedijski sistem.

2. danaja works as a mechanism for the understanding, storage and the restoring of symbolism. The works of danaja are never medium or technically confined. Our language is vulgar and the symbolisms common

• danaja deluje kot mehanizem za analizo simbolov in simbolizmov znotraj sistema, njihovega shranjevanja in ponovne adaptacije. Gre torej za sistem spomeniškega varstva simbolizma. danaja ni medijsko ali tehnichno omejen sistem. Nash jezik je ljudski, simbolizmi znani.

3. even if danaja always works as a whole group without individualities, it's divided in four groups: sun [sonce] Ikarus working as a visual propaganda and other visual communications tool, water [voda] MSP exploring lyrical, erotical and emotional aspects of systems, air [zrak] fazan003 studies the reach and technologies hidden behind the range of each medium and freedom [svoboda] Globalko etc as a 3d form of danaja and it's theories in forms of actual products and visual adaptations of ideas.

• cheprav danaja deluje kot celota je navidezno razdeljena na štiri skupine: sonce [ikarus], ki se ukvarja z vizualno propagando in ostalimi vizualnimi orodji, voda [MSP-mehanična soška postrv], ki raziskuje lirično erotične in čustvene aspekte sistemov, zrak[fazan003] ki raziskuje in razvija domete medijev, ter s tem njihovo sposobnost doseganja ter shirjenja informacij in svoboda [globalko…] ki se ukvarja z dejansko aplikacijo teoretichnih in ideoloških sistemov danaje v vsakdan

4. Although the components of danaja are well known and promoted, the faces behind it, and therefore the people involved (and their stories), are hidden behind the work to clarify the story and symbolism behind it excluding the human factor of compassion or other personal feelings torewards the author as an individual

• četudi so vsi deli danaje jasno razvidni, znani in promovirani so avtorji in njihove zgodbe vsaj navidezno zakriti za njihovimi deli, da bi izključili človeški faktor sočustvovanja in apliciranja lastnih zgodb na avtorjevo. S tem se izolira zgolj odnos in čustva do dela samega.

5. The anonymity of the people forming the group, or at least the anonymity in the group works and projects guaranties the complete flexibility and gives the power to change and reinvent the work and goals, providing the power of self preservation and the revitalization of the ideas behind the goal.

• anonimnost skupine chlanov, ali vsaj chlanov samih, omogoča in zagotavlja popolno fleksibilnost in daje skupini mozhnost ohranjevanja in samo-obnove idej za cilji in nachrti, kako do teh ciljev priti

6. the interaction between the components inside danaja works on the same basis as a state, ideology, art and religion. It's main adoration center is the symbol, as the meeting point for ideologies and believe. An identification symbol and gravitating point for it's followers and believers. Every brunch gives an apparent sense of autonomy but still follows the strict rules and roles of the firm belief in love.

• komunikacija komponentov znotraj danaje deluje na istih principih kot ideologije drzhave, umetnosti in religije. Bazirana je na kulta simbola, kot središča ideologije in vere. Vsaka posamezna veja daje navidezni obchutek avtonomije a hkrati sledi in upošteva stroga pravila in pripadnost trdnega zavedanja ljubezni.


7. Although the structured form of danaja and it's impersonal approach it's main concern and soul purpose of existence is the viewer as the individual. the audience in one person. The common worker forming the collective that has and gives the power and words to revolutions.

• navkljub fragmentalni sestavi in danajinem neosebnem pristopu, je njen glavni cilj in subjekt gledalec kot posameznik, ochinstvo in obchestvo v eni osebi. Običajni delavec kolektiva, ki je napajal in dajal besedo revolucijam.

8. By displaying danaja's works and thoughts and exposing the elements and structures of every day life and the mass-media to the viewer, it enables him to either agree or disagree with them, allowing him to have, or form an objective view on society and modern day mediums. So danaja functions as a mirror for modern day society.

• z javnim prikazovanjem danajinih misli in del, ter razkrivanjem struktur vsakodnevnega zhivljenja in medijev v njem, gledalcu omogochimo, da se z njimi strinja ali ne strinja in da izoblikuje neke vrste objektiven pogled na druzhbo in moderni medijski sistem. Tako danaja deluje kot ogledalo danashnje druzhbe.

9. danaja therefore exists only with the existence of an audience followers or haters an audience as receptors of information and transmitters of the energy (5W).

• danaja tako, za svoj obstoj potrebuje občinstvo, tako zagovornikov kot nasprotnikov, ki delujejo kot sprejemniki informacij in oddajniki energije (5W).

10. danaja follows and uses the rules, aesthetics and language of it's own. allowing the members and components within it to function in a system that's autonomous from the parallel reality [life], using only it's symbols as means of communication.

• danaja sledi svojim pravilom, estetiki in za komunikacijo uporablja svoj jezik, kar omogocha chlanom znotraj nje, da delujejo neodvisno od vzporednega sveta (imenovanega življenje) tako, da uporabljajo zgolj njegove simbole in simbolizme ter komunikacijske sisteme (medije)

11. danaja functions on a ready-made concept and it's formed on patterns adopted from every day life such as states, religion, pop-culture and mass media, exploiting it's weakness for the spread of it's own concept. but always, even if working on the same basics and rules, avoiding the systems trivial aspects if not using them as a tool.

• danaja deluje kot že izdelan koncept, ki sisteme chrpa iz vsakodnevnega zhivljenja in sorodnih sistemov kot so drzhave, religija, pop kultura in masovne medijske korporacije. Izrablja njihove slabosti za shiritev svojega lastnega koncepta, toda nikoli, čeprav deluje na podobni bazi, ne zapade v trivialnost teh istih sistemov, vendar jih uporabi le kot orodje za doseganje lastnih ciljev

12. every part of danaja's structure can function separately as long as it follows the rules and roles in the structure of the system

• vsak del znotraj danajine strukture, lahko navidezno deluje posamichno, dokler sledi pravilom in zachrtanim smernicam znotraj sistema, kot ga dolocha danaja

13. danaja ceases to exist when it becomes a tool of an other trivial system and by that destroyed and exploited in it's core and when it's terms or structure are violated. Or when the members loose the ancient dream of traveling to the edge of the space and back with the same energy that fuels he stars. And the creation of the systems that run it

• danaja preneha delovati in obstajati ko postane orodje trivialnega sistema shirjenja informacij in s tem zanika ali unichi temelje svojega obstoja. Preneha z delovanjem tudi, ko izgine potreba po raziskovanju mej vesolja ter potovanju do njih in nazaj. Z isto energijo, ki napaja zvezde, ter sistemi, ki jo formirajo.









Laibach 13.01.10

but for me...

but for me the birth of
something beautifull,
the bird of something sad...
the bird of something that resembles emptiness...
the birth of something
BAD

every year

Every year the »same difference«



We curiously turn our heads back... in the search for the secrets left behind. For our foot steps... quietly imprinted in the sand, that we call memories. Good or bad... beautiful or f*****g ugly... but always ours. Some about love and some about friends. Always a retrospective. Some friends are imaginary, some loves come and go... but the true ones stay...



This time there will be no speeches about emotions, this time there will be no drums filled with big words... even if we could talk about loss and pain. Even if we could screams the names of our love ones in the grey mist of the morning. Even if I love those lost moments. Even if I still have to swallow hard from time to time.



This time just: “a happy birthday Mr. Strazhar”



danaja